...have you ever been so mad at someone that you want to rip their heads off...
BUT FREAKING CANT CAUSE THEY'RE YOURE BEST FRIEND?!

gosh; jenay and i are cool and stuff, but sometimes she just pisses me off.
i mean, yeah okay, applying for the same job as me, when she KNOWS how much i really want it (just like andrew applied for punahou even though she died, which btw REALLY PISSED HER OFF) ...that's BEARABLE...i guess.
but she's so...omfg sometimes. she makes me want to bang my head into a wall.
i mean, she's fun to be around and stuff, but the stuff that goes on in her brain? its just fccn screwed over sometimes x___x
like, for instance how me and jen were talking today; i want to apply for this job and stuff...and jenay wants the same position, since i told her i'm applying for it (at least, that's what it looks & feels like). sooooooo we were talking about how she's not a very good person to rely on; jenay changes plans in the blink of an eye.
what pisses me off is when she agrees to do something with me and then andrew or someone else mentions (right in front of me) oh you wanna go do something else that day? Jenay: yeah sure blahblahbalbh (right in front of me) x________x
jenay hasn't been coming to track and sht and she's the freaking reason that even I go. wtf. i mean, if she wasn't gonna go all the time, why make the committment? yes, i'm being a hypocrite about this since i dont go to track all the time, but...fck i told Coach Dane before hand that oh i'm not coming "_________" (insert dates there) or...i have homework this day, but i'll go running after i'm done (he doesnt care much if you miss as long as you're not at home doing nothing). Jenay just decides, oh i'm tired, i dont think i'm gonna go today. and judo? she says that she loves it and stuff, but she's never at practice?
today after school, i was gonna go get an application with hre for a job...i called her...3 times. she didnt answer. and then i texted her & was lke, are you gonna go get the application? Her: "oh i got a ride home already hehe" ...SERIOUSLY?
GOSH; i know i'm gonna miss her next year, but some things about what she does and the things she chooses to do...just piss me off.

k well, i guess i shall end this here; ..i WILL miss her...but sht...idk how to tell her that she needs to straighten out her priorities and let the people that are related to each thing...KNOW what her priorities are. if she plans on just skipping out on everything in order to do things only SHE wants at the TIME she wants, other people wont be there for her when SHE needs them. they're gonna be busy doing other stuff, that THEY want.